QUICKIE

one.

i got a phone not long ago and so glad i am. my previous phone somewhat died on me, with battery life running out fast although i bought a new spare battery. it ate my storage space and even deleted my whatsapp.

two.

there is someone in the house that i really dislike and i felt that everything that was done for her are not reciprocate. i felt that she is living in her bubble of lies and i really dont know what and how she can live this way. we knew what is going on because we witnessed it but why she still lies about it? it make me feel that we are idiots to her.

three.

hongkah is merging with lianhua and i am very affected by it. i can say that i have come a long way since the very first day i reported work in hongkah. i was full of complaints because i cannot cope with the overwhelming workload. i cannot accept some of the school culture and i felt that the students deserved more. i hate that i have to learn everything so quickly and i have to do every single thing. from setting papers to running a camp to planning the annual prize presentation. but the longer i stayed in hongkah, the more i am thankful.

i am thankful for the open culture. thankful that every teacher is nice and honest to each other (accept a couple of them). thankful that every teacher is helpful and they are more of a friend than a colleague. thankful that every meeting is a working session and thankful that how each teacher shares the burden and workload of every other teachers.

i am thankful for my classes and how glad that i am given the choice to follow them to the next level. how i love them more each day although i seem like torturing them. how they actually secretly like me (i assume because they were so happy when i told them i will be going to the oversea trip with them). how they do things to really please me and how i can be sarcastic and fierce to them without them complaining about me to their parents. they are my first batch of students and the thought of me not being able to see them taking their results make me really upset.

and finally i am thankful for all the leadership roles given although i wanted to be just a normal teacher initially. i am thankful for the on job training and this gives me so much confident when it seems like i am leeching on some other teachers. and each event i planned and lead had taught me so many valuable lessons and so many learning points for me.

the question is, if not lianhua then where?

four.

so there is an extra bone in both my feet and the one in my right foot is sitting on my nerves which causes the frequent pain that i am experiencing every time. i was given an insole but it actually doesnt really help so i decided to go for an operation preferably end of may or first week of june. i am scare because what if from then on i have to walk with a limp if my feet stubbornly refuse to become normal or i will feel more pain after the operation. anyway its not some major operation, its just a day surgery.

five.

i am so tired every single day this whole week. i cannot wait for weekend although there is no plans at all.